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Hi. I’ve been missing.

Steeped into things that aren’t good for my mind, allowing it to numb itself. You’re probably thinking drugs at this point, and you’d be right in a way but not the conventional kind. Addiction comes in countless shapes and forms.

I even tried to force myself to write last night but couldn’t. I felt like all my thoughts were over, or they’d dropped out of my head. What could I write with an empty head? It was a suffocating feeling.

So today, I sat down and decided to write one line, then another, about anything. And I chose truth as the ‘anything’.

This isn’t writer’s block, it is something else I suppose. Just a lawless, lust-less meandering into the desert of insignificant things. Where you pick up each thingamajig and wonder about nothing, your mind simply shapes itself around it, and then around the next one, and so on.

I did put up something on Instagram though, it goes a little something like:

People forgive villains,

But not heroes

Who fall.

Kind of inspired by the new track that has come out – Monster – by Shawn Mendes and Justin Bieber. Not a big fan of JB’s new releases but the song is dark and vulnerable, exactly my brand of things.

This isn’t a standalone thing. Music has inspired me a lot when it comes to writing. But there are also times when I need absolute quiet in order to write. I wonder if that’s the case with everyone.