“It’s going to be okay. It’s not exactly fair but it’ll be all right. You’re not 3 or 4 or 5 or 6 or 7 or 8 or 9 or 10 or 11 or 12 or 13 or 14 or 15 0r 16 or 17 or 18 or 19 or 20 or 21 or 22 or 23 or 24 years old anymore. You’re not helpless. This is not the way things will always be, because you stepped out of that circle and saw that things were different. You were different.
Even if, there is that inexplicable sadness that jumps up within you during a coffee break or at home after work or while sitting in on a meeting or laughing at a friend’s joke. Even with the claws of all those years sunk deep within you, you’ve learnt to move and feel and breathe like you are whole. So don’t think for a second that you’re stuck again just because of geography and logistics. Those can change. Like they did before.
You’re learning and this is old, this is triggering, but this a new you, the old you left long back so instead of doing what the old you did, find a new way. Step away, walk away, breathe different air. You’re already doing well.
I’m rooting for you, not because victory is guaranteed but because even in defeat you will be something phenomenal, even when reduced to feeling small you’re already taking the next big breath to stand tall, stand bigger. It’s only a matter of time.
If you don’t believe it, don’t. It’s true either way.”
insearchofthebeautiful 